Hi, friend. I have been obsessed with spirituality and the afterlife since I was a child. I was raised an atheist, and the not knowing has pushed at me for as long as I have memory of existence. It has been a life-long desire of mine to know, understand, and quantify the mystery of life after death.
I have been through some intense experiences, and I know it’s anecdotal, but I feel like this has been confirmed by everyone worth respecting in the field of spirituality: your consciousness is made of energy, and whatever you feed your consciousness about life after death is what you experience after death.
This is going to be true whether death is the end of your journey and life-after-death is simply a reaction of your brain cells atrophying, or whether all these places that various deities have described truly exist. If Heaven is real for Christians, and Paradise is real for Islams, then those are the respective experiences that they will have upon death.
Personally, I can’t imagine much that sounds worse than going to worship a deity in a perfect place for eternity where everything is bliss at all times. Sounds equally exhausting to me as Hell, honestly. So I’ve been searching and searching for something way cooler than that.
I’ve found two things that greatly impact my own beliefs: the Urantia book, a very large tome that can best be described using it’s synopsis on Wikipedia, “The book aims to unite religion, science, and philosophy, and its enormous amount of material about science is unique among literature claimed to be presented by celestial beings. Among other topics, the book discusses the origin and meaning of life, mankind’s place in the universe, the relationship between God and people, and the life of Jesus.” 10/10 recommend.
The second is starseed theory. If you’ve heard of twin flames, they are covered under this umbrella. Starseed theory talks about how across multiple planets in the known universe, multitudes of beings were sent to Earth to grow as humans and help the inhabitants of this world through the planetary ascension. Hecking lot of words for there may be more to your purpose than you could ever possibly imagine. Manifestation is often covered under this umbrella, and you’ll hear the word “Source” used in lieu of the word God.
If either of these things bring you hope, peace, or comfort, I’m super happy to expand on them. I also run a website for a very amazing Australian 5th dimensional and quantum healer named el Ma Ra and you can find her at www.elmaraseraphim.com. I also love Loner Wolf for all things spiritual and esoteric.
If none of this is comforting at all and only adds another level of panic, it is a completely acceptable choice to turn instead to just pure atheism. I have spent many, many years in and out of atheism as a way to help myself heal from some rather frightening spiritual experiences. I believe 100% beyond a shadow of a doubt that if you don’t want to exist after this, you don’t have to. You will not go to hell. You will not languish in a state of fear or unknowing, your consciousness will simply dissolve. You will just cease to be. Anyone is welcome to choose this at any time. I believe wholeheartedly that continued existence requires consent. You choose what to consent to.
I’m pretty sure that after this life, my spouse and I are going to be continuing on to other planetary experiences in other dimensions or folds of space, where our shared consciousness (we are twin flames) will continue to grow and expand over the period of millenia until our souls mature enough to fuse with God. I believe it will be a terrific adventure filled with all of the experiences from bliss to pain to horror to joy, and everything in between.
Hope any of that helps. 💜