Honesty
Travesty
World-ending calamity
When will this fight
Ever finally fucking end
When will my life
Start to matter again
What did I do
Where did you go
What will we accomplish
After the snow
Why do my choices
Always lead to Death
Why is my best
Always second-guessed
Why is my Twin Flame
My only true test?
For your love
For your fear
For your freedom
Have my ear
Don’t walk away
If your steps won’t bring you home
Don’t leave me in this room
Vulnerable and alone
Justin, my Justin
My Undercover Man
Why would you leave
When you know it’s safe to land?
How is this about you?
When everything is about me?
How is this about me?
When everything is about you?
How do we Truce
Without our Special Juice?
How do I do life
When I can’t even stay dead?
How do I do life
When you leave from our bed?
Twin Flame love
The perfect storm
But here I am
In human form
My love, I will do anything I need to stay sober tonight
All I need is for you to come back home alive
I think there might be something
There inside each of us
Something that drives us away
While we wait for our Parent’s bus
God grant me the serenity
To put up with my own insanity
I can’t handle me
It’s no surprise
But you must know
That I’ve given up on lies
I work an honest program
And honesty bequeathed on me
Has hurt me straight in the monotony
I can barely stand
And yet I stand for me
Sitting in that tree
K-i-s-s-i-n-g
I can’t save you
I can only save myself
So come back home
And leave the bottle on the shelf
There is nowhere left to run away
Because no matter how deep I cut
Or how short my hair
No matter my body size
Or my type of underwear
It is always me
It is always me
It is always me
Underneath
And my Star Crew
Says “not yet”
I pray
She’ll call me out
And not take that bet
So maybe it’s true
And maybe it fades
Maybe I want to die
Or maybe I want a good grade
Did I succeed?
Do I pass?
If I have to take this test, Lord
Give me my best
More than straight A’s
What would that even be?
The IQ of a hyper-genius
I didn’t ask for this
I’m high enough to take myself
Straight to the throne of piss
So God and Mom, please
Give us a rest
Let me walk back
And redo with my best
Keep this heart beating
Until January 3rd
After that, I’ll be less absurd
Let’s keep these feet moving
You bring me where I belong
I think I’ll let You
Because I’m blowing this on my own
But I need to remember
I kneeled in the clouds with Mom and Dad
And honestly,
Being here makes me so fucking sad
When I know what it’s like with Them
Why would I choose to wake?
And yet, that front door
Just started to shake
So thank you,
Tree Krew
Celestial Wonders
Star Beings
Thank you
For removing my urge
And bringing my Angel
Home to me
Like You always promise
And just like
I finally fucking deserve